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Spn 8.10 - Torn and Frayed
Jan. 28th, 2013 09:37 pmI just finished watching 8.10 and I can't even... just- Samandriel. Why? Why did you do this Spn writers?
So I've been reading the Sancuary 'Verse by Try2CatchMe (http://archiveofourown.org/series/29735)
It was just supposed to be some light, canon adjacent reading, and now...
I can't handle this. At this rate they're probably going to kill off Benny too. Which brings me back to the other thing this episode has sparked in me.
I hate Sam.
It's been building up for a while, but this episode cemented it.
1. Dean had a friend, an actual, proper friend in Benny and Sam couldn't handle that. Sam's whole 'but he's a vampire!' arguement really pisses me off. I mean, wasn't Sam defending the poor innocent monsters back in seasons one and two. and season 5. Heck, he was even defending Amy in season 7 (random side note: Amy POND? seriously? Doctor Who anyone?). So why is it so impossible to except that Benny is a vampire that doesn't kill people. they came across a whole nest of them back in season 2, and Sam was more then happy to jump to their defence. Actually, the fact that he's so against Benny, leads me to think that I was right about a suspicion I had back in season 2. That Sam wasn't so much for saving the vampires because they were good and deserved to be saved, but because he was against Gorden, and specifically, Dean being friends with him. Now I know Gorden turned out to be a wack job, but Sam didn't know that at the time. And he can't have claimed a hunch on him being bad because we know Sam is CRAP at reading people (see: Ruby). So basically, Sam just doesn't want Dean to have any friends. The only time Dean is allowed friends is if Sam is a part of this friendship, which he isn't with Benny, because Benny and Dean had a whole year together building this friendship (brotherhood -which makes it so much worse) so Sam is naturally looking for anything to put against him.
Now all this wouldn't be that big a deal, except for making Sam look like a little brat, except that it has an effect on Dean. And we know, proven time and time again, that no matter what, when it comes to the crunch, Dean will choose Sam everytime. Which was great when Sam needed Dean there to protect him and Dean needed Sam to provide the emotional support and physical proof that he was needed. But that's not the case anymore. Dean has connections, friends outside of Sam, and he's cutting them off to make his little brother happy. If anything, Sam's continued constant present in his life is damaging (and he's grown so damn much in that year he spent away from him in purgatory with Benny and Cas).
2. Which leads me to my next point. Amelia. I amit I didn't like her at first, but she's inexplicably grown on me. Her relationship with Sam has grown on me and... my brain is too tired to fully express my ever growing annoyance and hostility towards Sam and the way he dealt with that whole relationship. Just, the way he left in the middle of the night for starters. An the way Sam is STILL such a bloody self imposed martyr. All, "I could be happy with her, but I don't think I should." It's annoying and horrible and rrrrrahr!!
The most horrible part about this whole thing is that I used to really love Sam. The first time I saw the pilot, it was Sam who I decided was amazing. Dean didn't really properly grow on me until about season three (I mean I always liked him, but I didn't really see him passed to adorable hotness that was Sam). And then Season 4 and Castiel came along, and both Sam and Dean took a step back for his amazingness. But even then, I still liked Sam. I still liked him when he was lying to Dean and drinking demon blood (I blamed Ruby for the first one, and admit to finding the blood thing hottt). I missed him like crazy in season 6 when we had soulless!Sam in his place. And season 7... actually, I don't think he did anyting that spectacular in season 7. But now, Season 8. At first I thought he was just boring- the first awesome thing he did was swing Thor's Hammer, that was hot. But then where did it go? where is it now, since I'm pretty sure he killed the guy that bought it - but now, I'm pretty sure I hate him. And he's going to need to do something really drastic for that to change. Like accept Benny. If Benny dies or goes off the wagon, I'm laying the blame entirely on Sam, and that's irredeemable.
On a happier note, here's a bunch of things I want to see happen in Supernatural.
- For Dean and Amelia to meet. And for Amelia to be like, 'but I thought you said your brother was dead.' I've been thinking about Sam trying to explain it to her while leaving out the supernatural stuff, and it kind of makes it sound like Dean's been in jail. 'he was in there and there was nothing I could do. He's annoyed at me for not trying to break him out. I thought he was in there for good.' Which kind of makes me want to write a prison au with Dean and Cas and Benny in prison as lifers, and Dean being Benny's cellmate and Benny having a plan to break out but needing two men to do it, and Dean refusing to leave without his best friend Cas. It would be awesome. I really love prison aus. It's hard to find good ones. There needs to be more of them.
- I want to see Cas and Benny (and Dean) interact up here on earth! I kind of desperetly want Cas to defend Benny against Sam in that kind of off handed, mildly insulting way of his. I don't know, (maybe I'll be proved wrong in the next few episodes) but it seems like Benny and Cas were kind of friends by the end of their epic trek across purgatory. I mean, Benny SAVED Cas's LIFE. I know he could of had ulterior motives to it, but he didn't HAVE to save him. He could of just let him die and Dean wouldn't have blamed him. He would have still gone with Benny because it's the only way for him to get out. And we know Cas doesn't think trivially of people saving his life (it's kind of my head canon on how him and Balthazar became such good friends).
- And lastly (and I know this is a long shot) I want Dean or Sam or the show to acknowledge or bring up Dean's obvious bisexuality or his atraction to men. Or don't care how they do it, or in what context, I just want it even slightly acknowledged. Failing that, I want more slashiness between Dean and Cas. It seems to be lacking.
So I've been reading the Sancuary 'Verse by Try2CatchMe (http://archiveofourown.org/series/29735)
It was just supposed to be some light, canon adjacent reading, and now...
I can't handle this. At this rate they're probably going to kill off Benny too. Which brings me back to the other thing this episode has sparked in me.
I hate Sam.
It's been building up for a while, but this episode cemented it.
1. Dean had a friend, an actual, proper friend in Benny and Sam couldn't handle that. Sam's whole 'but he's a vampire!' arguement really pisses me off. I mean, wasn't Sam defending the poor innocent monsters back in seasons one and two. and season 5. Heck, he was even defending Amy in season 7 (random side note: Amy POND? seriously? Doctor Who anyone?). So why is it so impossible to except that Benny is a vampire that doesn't kill people. they came across a whole nest of them back in season 2, and Sam was more then happy to jump to their defence. Actually, the fact that he's so against Benny, leads me to think that I was right about a suspicion I had back in season 2. That Sam wasn't so much for saving the vampires because they were good and deserved to be saved, but because he was against Gorden, and specifically, Dean being friends with him. Now I know Gorden turned out to be a wack job, but Sam didn't know that at the time. And he can't have claimed a hunch on him being bad because we know Sam is CRAP at reading people (see: Ruby). So basically, Sam just doesn't want Dean to have any friends. The only time Dean is allowed friends is if Sam is a part of this friendship, which he isn't with Benny, because Benny and Dean had a whole year together building this friendship (brotherhood -which makes it so much worse) so Sam is naturally looking for anything to put against him.
Now all this wouldn't be that big a deal, except for making Sam look like a little brat, except that it has an effect on Dean. And we know, proven time and time again, that no matter what, when it comes to the crunch, Dean will choose Sam everytime. Which was great when Sam needed Dean there to protect him and Dean needed Sam to provide the emotional support and physical proof that he was needed. But that's not the case anymore. Dean has connections, friends outside of Sam, and he's cutting them off to make his little brother happy. If anything, Sam's continued constant present in his life is damaging (and he's grown so damn much in that year he spent away from him in purgatory with Benny and Cas).
2. Which leads me to my next point. Amelia. I amit I didn't like her at first, but she's inexplicably grown on me. Her relationship with Sam has grown on me and... my brain is too tired to fully express my ever growing annoyance and hostility towards Sam and the way he dealt with that whole relationship. Just, the way he left in the middle of the night for starters. An the way Sam is STILL such a bloody self imposed martyr. All, "I could be happy with her, but I don't think I should." It's annoying and horrible and rrrrrahr!!
The most horrible part about this whole thing is that I used to really love Sam. The first time I saw the pilot, it was Sam who I decided was amazing. Dean didn't really properly grow on me until about season three (I mean I always liked him, but I didn't really see him passed to adorable hotness that was Sam). And then Season 4 and Castiel came along, and both Sam and Dean took a step back for his amazingness. But even then, I still liked Sam. I still liked him when he was lying to Dean and drinking demon blood (I blamed Ruby for the first one, and admit to finding the blood thing hottt). I missed him like crazy in season 6 when we had soulless!Sam in his place. And season 7... actually, I don't think he did anyting that spectacular in season 7. But now, Season 8. At first I thought he was just boring- the first awesome thing he did was swing Thor's Hammer, that was hot. But then where did it go? where is it now, since I'm pretty sure he killed the guy that bought it - but now, I'm pretty sure I hate him. And he's going to need to do something really drastic for that to change. Like accept Benny. If Benny dies or goes off the wagon, I'm laying the blame entirely on Sam, and that's irredeemable.
On a happier note, here's a bunch of things I want to see happen in Supernatural.
- For Dean and Amelia to meet. And for Amelia to be like, 'but I thought you said your brother was dead.' I've been thinking about Sam trying to explain it to her while leaving out the supernatural stuff, and it kind of makes it sound like Dean's been in jail. 'he was in there and there was nothing I could do. He's annoyed at me for not trying to break him out. I thought he was in there for good.' Which kind of makes me want to write a prison au with Dean and Cas and Benny in prison as lifers, and Dean being Benny's cellmate and Benny having a plan to break out but needing two men to do it, and Dean refusing to leave without his best friend Cas. It would be awesome. I really love prison aus. It's hard to find good ones. There needs to be more of them.
- I want to see Cas and Benny (and Dean) interact up here on earth! I kind of desperetly want Cas to defend Benny against Sam in that kind of off handed, mildly insulting way of his. I don't know, (maybe I'll be proved wrong in the next few episodes) but it seems like Benny and Cas were kind of friends by the end of their epic trek across purgatory. I mean, Benny SAVED Cas's LIFE. I know he could of had ulterior motives to it, but he didn't HAVE to save him. He could of just let him die and Dean wouldn't have blamed him. He would have still gone with Benny because it's the only way for him to get out. And we know Cas doesn't think trivially of people saving his life (it's kind of my head canon on how him and Balthazar became such good friends).
- And lastly (and I know this is a long shot) I want Dean or Sam or the show to acknowledge or bring up Dean's obvious bisexuality or his atraction to men. Or don't care how they do it, or in what context, I just want it even slightly acknowledged. Failing that, I want more slashiness between Dean and Cas. It seems to be lacking.
