I think I need to get back in the habit of using my lj. I kind of replaced writing in my diary with writing on lj and then I stopped using lj and now I just stay up scrolling through Tumblr till 2am which is just. not healthy.
Also I'm finding Tumblr feels very isolating. I'm there, surrounded by heaps of other people all having their own conversations, and it just makes me feel really lonely? I'm also thinking about maybe using my Polyvore account again (which I haven't actually been on for several years and I have no idea whether it's still active) becasue I actually made friends there? Which was nice? Tumblr's fun, and addictive (so addictive) but not actually very conductive for creating friendships.
One thing I've learnt about myself since leaving high school is that I'm not actually very good at making friends. What no one ever tells you about finishing school is the sudden cut down in social interaction. In school, you're surrounded by the same people every single day and you're forced to interact with them. Which sucks if you don't like them, but it's also guarenteed social interaction five days a week. And becuase you're around the same people five days a week for somewhere between six-twelve years, you get to know them. And then when you leave school, you just lose that.
It's not that I miss the people from school, because for the most part, I really don't. It's that I miss the regular social interaction with people that I know and am familiar with. It's really isn't the same in uni.
In uni, say in one of your classes there's one or two people you meet and get along with and talk to in class. That's great. The problem is, you have one or two classes with that person, which adds up to seeing them around three hours each week, and during this time you're focusing on the class and what the tutor/lecturer is saying, because you want to pass this class and you're actually interested in the content, and it's just not very conductive for getting to know someone. Unless you make an effort to see these people outside of class, they kind of just become that person you had that one class with, who occasionally you nod to when you pass them in the food court. Which is nice. But doesn't really help with the feeling isolated thing.